LET THE RIGHT PICTURE BE LEFT

I’m working on this particular project – a montage. I have this turtle working attitude. I’m a stickler for details I wanna make sure my work is free from imperfections. So I work slowly, I often check my work (except when I write coz I usually write straight. It’s easier for me to express myself in words sometimes especially when you just have to talk your feelings or just say what you want. And often, ideas shoot as fast as it occurs) it is when I make sketches on my notebook during boring hours that makes myself work without taking care much about its ugly resolution. So I work loong, it would sometimes take me months to finish a montage. I believe everything (even in making this kind of handcrafted magazine painting) everything will fit into its right place at the right time with the right picture. And how would I know when its right? As I’m working I asked myself the same question. Since I was working on a self-project when everything will not be graded, no criteria for judging etc. but it was difficult. You have to be patient in looking or sometimes in waiting for the “right” picture to be on your desk, to flash on your eyes or even just to be on your mind. This self-project I’m talking about is also a reflection of the travels of my mind and… heart. It wasn’t easy to express everything you’ve contained inside. It wasn’t easy to let everything out in one shot (especially when what you have (resources) isn’t “right” or isn’t fitted to be on your frame). And so you have to be patient and also you have to be clear to yourself, first. What it is that you really wanted by the way? What it is that you really feel? What ‘s really up on your mind? If you have a coherent, understandable (this includes it could be done) and its very clear to you, then you are ready to go baby. But how did I know everything is “right” if I will keep waiting…looking for something “better” something that will “fit” something…close to perfection… then one day it hit me. I realized I have to make a decision. And that I “have to choose” I have to come up with something. There’s nothing that forced me to think that way, I just realized how long would it take me to make everything okay? Coz sometimes choosing better means being wiser. You don’t have exactly “everything” to choose from, you don’t have everything to be your options… often times you have to CHOOSE.